Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Self-Made Dreams

A boiling kettle of frothy milk ready to spill over,
Anger ready to burst from the veins,
Dim resignation to life's challenges, 
Mindless stomping through lifeless days,
Quiet contemplation of ending it all,
Fear bursting from hastily-stitched seams,
Too nervous to rhyme properly,
Too busy to properly rhyme,
Fear, fear of living a normal life,
Tired, tired to live an extraordinary one,
Such is the life of a mere 16-year-old,
Barely begun with life,
contemplating termination already,
with all the pressure of self-made dreams.

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A small piece I wrote on the 25th of May that I was extremely hesitant to post. But hey, in the words of Joseph Reaux, 'Poetry is truth in its Sunday clothes' and Sunday clothes are rarely a feast for the eyes, are they? 

In any case, reader, hopefully, I will stop writing poetry positively dripping with teen angst and emotion - it really ruins the vibe of this blog.

Saturday, 16 September 2017

The Monthly Ledger: September 2017

Perhaps I should make these yearly ledgers.

Hullo, hullo!

How are you? This month, I have been up to my nose in homework and deadlines (interesting etymology - do google it!) but still snatched some time during the travel home, during dinner or borrowed some (very) expensive sleep time to read a few books.

Now, I've got some good news and bad news. The good news is that I will be finishing school in about 2 months, and after that, I will sell my soul to liven this blog. The bad news is that I've got two more months of school, during which I'm probably going to forget that I have a blog. Let's hope that the time I finally go back to regular posts (remember the Friday Posts Oath?), I will still have some soul and spirit.

Anyway, here are some quick comments on two great books I read over the past few months:

1) Love, Aubrey by Suzanne LaFleur

Love, AubreyAn upset me picked up this for need of a book without war and destruction (and it had a goodreads rating of 4.2). It turned out to be a light, poignant read and ended up with me being more upset than when I started it. The writing style was very relaxing, and LaFleur has very intelligently places stylistic elements (like letters, events) so that they struck a definitive, emotional chord within the reader. The part about (spolier alert) a dead sister made me tear up (I've a little sister too, oops), especially because LaFleur skillfully protrayed the purity and innocence of the sisters' relationship. However, it isn't a very fast-paced plot and I would recommend this only to those who are expecting a deeply reflective, slow-paced plot set in the country.


Overall Rating: 3.5/5




2) Women of Iron, by Catherine King

Women of IronNo other feminist book have I read (except for the Memoirs of a Geisha) has portrayed the women in such a blaringly harsh and raw manner. Set in England during the Industrial Revolution, it follows the story of Lissie, an beautiful orphaned bastard of pure, noble blood, who is sold to a conniving trader. A jarring turn of events ends with her rape, betrayal by her love interest and the death of her a father, the only person who truly cared for her. Women of Iron was truthful through and through and despite the happy ending for the protagonist, the emotional growth she undergoes with a series of brutal betrayals and rape makes her deserving of it. The only downside to this book was that some parts of it were unnecessarily long and dragged out, making it rather boring sometimes (and it wasn't worth the valuable sleep-time I had borrowed). I also wouldn't call it an entertaining read, but a book that has to be read purely for the sake of knowing.

Overall: 3.5/5




3) Room, by Emma Donoghue


Room
Overall: 4/5


AND A BOOK EXHIBITION!

There happened to be a book sale in my city (!) and I bought books worth a few thousand rupees. I will review these once I work off my sleep debt.


  • Love, Aubrey by Suzanne LaFleur
  • Women of Iron, by Catherine King
  • Princess, by Jean Sasson
  • Room, by Emma Donoghue
  • The Pact, by Jodi Picoult
  • Spirit Walker, by Michelle Paver
  • Gone Girl, by Gillian Flynn (Yes, I haven't read it yet)
Until next time, reader!

Tuesday, 22 August 2017

Gingerbread

There's a piece by that adamant mountain,
one by that sparkling river,
one in that water nymph's hair
one by that unrhyming canyon.

A piece of me all over the world,
a jack in all trades,
ought to mean that I own the golden eggs,
O Boy, it appears that I forgot another rhyme.

As words drop our syllable by syllable,
mind, not on the page, dear reader,
old fluidity long bygone,
replaced by that empty rock, yes,
the one right there.

Hope is the thing with feathers,
that perches in the soul,
but when your soul is
tried up tufts of hair
rolling across the African savannah,
oops, there goes my rhyme and reason.

Over the course of lines few,
I have lost pieces and rhyme,
reason and time.
Nevermore, mind.

- Lynn Gweeny

The randomness of this piece never fails to amuse me.

Sunday, 8 January 2017

The Monthly Ledger: January 2017

Good day, mate. Though I can't really call it a good day can I? When can one call a good day good? When it's goodness surpasses the conventional amount of goodness or perhaps when its goodness isn't badness? Or when the sun shines? Or maybe when I can make a new hat? Oh, stuff and nonsense. There's no such thing as a good day as a good day can only be called a good day by one that is having a good day and not a bad day. We are all mad here, aren't we? Good thing we're not all hatters though. We can't all handle all the nonsense and stuff and much of a muchness and nonsense all over again.

Oh sweet sweet Hatta. How I wish you weren't mad!

1) Heartless, by Marissa Meyer

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Jest.

What can I say? This book was heartbreaking and so very believable.

"Long before, Alive fell down the rabbit hole...and before the roses were painted red...the Queen of Hearts was just a girl, in love for the first time"

It follows the story of Lady Catherine Pinkerton of Turtle Rock Cove and her love for baking and love. She has had only one dream ever: to open a bakery (named Sweets and Tarts: The Most Wonderous Bakery in All of Hearts) with her handmaiden and friend, Mary Anne. A sly move by her mother and she's about to be proposed to by the King, a blabbering idiot twice as old as her (I so very despise him. He's the beefy kind I want to roast over a campfire while he giggles) . Enter Jest (groan). Lovely, mysterious, witty and humorous Jest. Jest, who has curly hair, amber eyes, a three pointed hat and a Raven as companion. Cath is now betrothed to the King, in love with Jest but wants a bakery. Meanwhile, a Jabberwock terrorizes her kingdom, Hearts. And with each step, she is only closer to the Murderer, Mad, Martyr and Monarch. 

First off, if I were Arya Stark, this is how my list will look like:
  1. Cath's mother
  2. The blabbering fool, the King of hearts
  3. Cath's mother
  4. Mary Ann
  5. Cath's father
  6. Cath's damn mother
  7. KILL THE MOTHER DAMMIT, THE MOTHER!
I'd pick the Jabberwock over Cath's mother, the Marchioness, any day. She's sly, controlling, selfish and pathetic. Five pages into the book and I hated her and felt very remorseful for Cath - it is very sad to see that the one person who's supposed to love you is pushing you over a cliff. What Cath does to her at the end, was nothing compared to what she deserves. The people of Hearts are mumbling, stammering, ignorant fools too - they cover up Jabberwock attacks with fake smiles and plastic faces and pretend nothing ever happened, that no one was ever killed so that they can go back to their happy, whimsical ignorant lives. BURN THEM ALL, LANNISTER, BURN THEM! *on a side note, autocorrect corrected Lannister to bannister xD if that isn't the funniest thing on earth!*

I love Catherine. She's a very strong woman and though she has her whimsies and dreams, I admired the way she didn't lose her heart so quickly to Jest, unlike the protagonists in other romance novels (in these other books, the female lead is desperately "trying" not to fall for the guy, but then she's says "I can't help it! I can't control my heart! My traitorous heart!). I could see that she made a genuine effort to keep him away too. Very passionate, witty and fiery when the situation calls for it. Another favorite character of mine was the mad Hatta. I remember at one point when he gives Cath a full, genuine smile for the first time and she realizes that he's indeed very handsome. I felt that this was a very cruel technique Meyer used to foreshadow that he was going to go mad! ARGHHHH. Hatta's end was the most cruel and I was near tears and no, he doesn't die. And Jest, Jest, Jest *sigh*. He's utterly perfect. He's so notoriously, irascibly and perfectly flawed. He has a strong character and a thoughtful, humorous personality. And how much I love that Raven of his!

Meyer has impressively crafted Cath's character and by the end of the book, I understood why she'd become the cruel Queen of Hearts, and I forgave her for all that she has done. The contrast between the flour-covered, whimsical, dreamy girl in page one and the cruel, heartless, vengeful woman in page 500 was shocking, but completely understandable. With all the events that had happened in the book, I felt it, I felt cruel, vengeful, heartless, I felt nothing. I think Meyer has beautifully replicated the Victorian era of forbidden love, social class discrimination and ignorant and unsympathetic parents. I think this book is an amazing Meyer-style expansion of the 'crazy, kooky, quirky world' of Lewis Carrol, an impressive backstory of the notorious Queen of Hearts.


Quick Quotes Quill:

“Perhaps we know each other in the future and you’re only remembering backward.” (Jest to Catherine, when Cath says she's seen him before)

“Now mine eyes see the heart that once we did search for, and I fear this heart shall be mended, nevermore.” (Raven, on Cath's heart)

“Impossible is my specialty"

And my favourite:


Off with his head!

Friday, 23 December 2016

The Monthly Ledger: December 2016

Hey there!

As the year draws to a close, I'd definitely conclude that this year, though I read very few books, I read some of the most influential ones. I'm done with my first year in IB and will be starting the second one in January 2017! We've still 9 days to 2017 but I've got the next year jam-packed to the minute! Tons of homework to complete, quality time with family and friends but most importantly, the prodigious International Baccalaureate Exams! These exams will decide whether universities will accept me, whether I will get a worthwhile job and whether my parents will disown me or not! 2017 is going to be a year of collective indecisiveness, hard work, failures, successes and most importantly, a lot of tears.

2016 has been a mixed year of successes and failures. I got my ICE Certificate in March (Distinction!), continuously did bad in Math HL ever since, participated in my first ever MUN conference, participated in HMUN, learned calligraphy, did my own science experiments, wrote an 800-word Audenesque poem, a fashion article set in the 1920s but most importantly, learned a lot.

Well, enough with the talking! Here's a list of a few memorable books I read in this year (I may have missed a few):

1) Unaccustomed Earth - Jhumpa Lahiri

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A decent book. A collection of short stories about Bengali families living in the US and how the immigrants' children grow, not as Bengalis, but Americans. A few stories were good but my favourite was the last one, Hema and Kaushik. My least favourite was 'A Choice of Accomodations' since I didn't quite get the point of it all.

I felt that I could relate to some of the characters in this book. Having moved to India from Singapore, lectures reminding me the importance of culture are not uncommon in my family. I strongly believe in culture and think it is essential to practice one's culture because as a human being, we have an innate need for a unique identity. While I don't mean to insult modernization, I do find it to be slightly generic and dull.

Rating: 3/5





2) The Kite Runner and And The Mountains Echoed - Khaled Hosseini

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Well what can I say? I am incredibly glad to have read A Thousand Splendid Suns and incredibly glad to have a teacher recommend me this author. Hosseini is an amazing storyteller, needless to say, and his books ravage the reader's very soul. The Kite Runner was immensely heart-wrenching and shocking and written in a very entertaining style. A book that stays with you longer after you finish reading.

However, I felt rather disappointed with 'And the Mountains Echoed'. Though I understand Hosseini was experimenting with a new writing style (it consists of nine chapters, each told from a different perspective), I couldn't connect with the characters personally and I was annoyed with a few. I liked the perspective of Abdullah and wanted to read more about him but it wasn't long before Hosseini shifted to another character's perspective. Hosseini didn't just leap from perspective to perspective but also across generations and time, which left me very confused and exasperated. This book didn't have the natural rhythm to it that Hosseini's previous books had. A book you're glad you finished reading. 

The Kite Runner: 5/5
And The Mountains Echoed: 2/5

3) Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden

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*Accidentally watches the movie for two and a half hours*

And I'm back!

A peaceful book. The kind you realize you've learned so much only after you've finished the book. It's rather gross in some parts, because the protagonist, Chiyo (later renamed Nitta Sayuri) loves a man around 20 years older than her. 

Regardless, it's beautiful. It's culturally very rich, especially considering the fact that this is the first book I've ever read about Japanese culture. A geisha's lifestyle is poignantly portrayed, and I deeply admire the lengths to which a geisha can go to save her reputation, beauty and her danna. From the outside, I felt like geisha were "royalty" of sorts, what with their skill, grace and the money that's bestowed upon them by their customers. However, it's only later in the book that I realized that geisha are not really as gifted as the appear - Mameha says, "We do not become Geisha to pursue our own destinies. We become Geisha because we have no other choice. "

As a reader, I could see Chiyo mature through the pages and her determination to meet the love of her life again is very impressive. Towards the end of the book, Golden shows us a changed geisha district: Americans, having now won the war against Japan, are now strolling through 'sacred' geisha districts, loud and raucous. I would say this part infuriated me the most: I absolutely despised the way Americans disrespected geisha - the begin to ask for sexual favours, something geisha believe is beneath them and is the utter insult to their profession, for a geisha sells her skills, not her body.
I also felt that some parts of the book were rather slow and unnecessary. 

Another favourite line from Mameha: "Remember, Chiyo, geisha are not courtesans. And we are not wives. We sell our skills, not our bodies. We create another secret world, a place only of beauty. The very word "geisha" means artist and to be a geisha is to be judged as a moving work of art."

Rating: 4/5

Well, since I'm rather out of time, I'll be listing all the books for now and updating this post later.
  • The Girl Who Played With Fire, Steig Larsson
  • A Clash of Kings, George R.R. Martin
  • Island of the Blue Dolphins, Scott O'Dell
  • The Silver Star, Jeannette Walls,
  • Persepolis, Marjane Satrapi
  • Harry Potter and the Cursed Child, by J. K. Rowling, Jack Thorne, John Tiffany
  • Stardust, Neil Gaiman
  • Fatherhood, Bill Cosby
  • The Rose and the Dagger, Renee Ahdieh
  • And many more I can't remember!
Goodbye!

Friday, 4 November 2016

Sophie's World, by Jostein Gaarder

Hello everyone!

I deeply apologize for not having posted something in a very long time. I have been rather preoccupied with IB (for all those who don't know, I am doing the IB program - perhaps I'll post something on that topic later on) but that doesn't mean I've given up on my books! A few books I read these past (frightening) months were Memoirs of a Geisha, A Court of Mist and Fury, The Girl Who Played with Fire, Stardust (Neil Gaiman) and a few more. From now on, I plan on posting a 'Monthly Ledger' of all the 'bibliophilic' events in my life, starting with today! Vamos, let's delve into October!


Presenting....

Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder

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This was a book my Theory of Knowledge teacher had suggested way back in the beginning of my IB program. (TOK is a subject focusing on philosophy - and its history - and aims to develop critical thinking skills. In addition, you also develop the art of  - forgive me - 'bullshitting' - through essays. But I personally find TOK an amazing subject to discuss about. It's definitely one of my most favourite IB classes).

I digress, as always.

Moving on, Sophie's World's is a story revolving around 14-year-old Norwegian teenager (on the threshold of 15) Sophie Amundsun, who begins to get mysterious letters from a man. The contents of these letters concern something dynamic and gruesome: the history of philosophy. As the novel progresses, Sophie begins to get letters from her 'philosophy teacher' and eventually meets him: her a philosophy teacher - Alberto Knox - is a middle-aged man with a blue beret and a little apartment of priceless possessions over the ages: from the Dutch philosopher Spinoza's optical glass lenses to the first edition of a book of Descartes' philosophical essays published in 1637, of which the very famous Discourse on Method originally appeared. As Alberto and Sophie advance through the ages, they learn about about everyone from Socrates (the very first Greek 'philosopher' in the world) to Sartre ( a French philosopher, one of the last notable ones of the last century). They learn about dualism, pantheism, existentialism, romanticism, nihilism, neoplatonism, Platonism, feminism, capitalism, communism, socialism, egoism, empiricism, rationalism, Hegelism, idealism, materialism, pluralism, skepticism, stoicism, sophism and together with them, so did I. The more Sophie learns, the more she realizes that her world is....imaginary. No, not in some artistic, rhetorical sense but literally. She and Alberto Knox use the techniques of various philosophers and come to understand that they are the mere figments of the imagination of Major Albert Knag, a Norwegian UN officer fighting on the war-front in Lebanon. They were being toyed around as a surprise for Major Albert Knag's daughter, Hilde's, birthday. Literally. How they escape the clutches of the Major forms the rest of the plot.

Comments:

A good book, but only if you have a lot of time in your hands. Reading it in one week, like I did due to time constraints, is not a very good idea, since this book requires even you to put your thoughts into it. Moreover, I got rather annoyed towards the end of the book because I was engrossed in the mystery of the Major more than the the history of philosophy and I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. Sometimes, I wish Alberto weren't so mysterious too, what with his ambiguous wording and all-knowing persona.

On the upside, Jostein Gaarder is an amazing storyteller - he explains every major philosophy with such simplicity, without betraying their sheer importance. There are a multitude of examples for each and unlike Wikipedia pages, he narrates philosophy like a story, each philosopher gradually folding into another and another and another and so on.

Quick Quotes Quill:

"The universe is a great mystery"

Concerning Romanticists: "This yearning for something distant and unattainable was characteristic of the Romantics. They longed for bygones eras, such as the Middle Ages, which now became enthusiastically reappraised after the Enlightenment's negative evaluation. And they longed for distant cultures like the Orient with its mysticism. Or else they would feel drawn to Night, to Twilight, to old ruins and the supernatural. They were preoccupied with that we usually refer to as the dark side of life, or the murky, uncanny and mystical."

How similar is this to the teenagers of today! A few notable Romanticists and their work: The Sorrows of the Young Werther by Goethe, 1774; She Walks in Beauty by Lord Byron; Heinrich von Ofterdingen by Novalis, 1801 (unfinished). Most Romantics died young, either due to tuberculosis or suicide, the latter of which was rising in Europe because unrequited love was becoming a popular concept. However, though Romanticism concerned majorly of romantic love, it also concerned the synthesis of philosophy, nature study and poetry. They believed the world and its people are one (world spirit) and that nature is a living, thriving organism. "Sitting in your attic dashing off inspired verses and investigating the life of plants or the composition of rocks were only two sides of the same coin because nature is not a dead mechanism, it is one living world spirit". Perhaps it is because of thoughts like these that most Romanticists either died young or grew up and became anti-Romantic and conservationist. Popular Romantics included Beethoven, Hans Christian Anderson, Brothers Grimm and Schelling.

Two more quotes which I absolutely loved and have truly experienced:

"The fairy tale gave the writer free rein to exploit his "universe-imagination" [universe-creating refers to God]. And even the creative act was not always completely conscious. The writer could experience that his story was being written by some innate force. He could practically be in a hypnotic trance while he wrote". "

[On the breaking of the barrier between the conscious and the subconscious] "All artists are aware of that. But then suddenly it's as if all the doors and all drawers fly open. Everything comes tumbling out by itself, and we can find all the words and images we need. This is when we have"lifted the lid" of the unconscious. We can call it inspiration, Sophie. It feels as if what we are drawing or writing  is coming from some outside source. "

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And I'd like to day goodbye with one last thought:


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Tuesday, 13 September 2016

Corro, let me run!

Another dramatic episode of cognitive chaos. 

These walls drive me crazy,
there's hate spewing everywhere,
stop with the proverbs and mindless advice,
no, they're getting me nowhere!

I need to run,
run, run, far from this burning hell.
Every step resounds with hatred and fury,
annoyed by ignorance, inaction and the futility of things.

Presente, preterite presente compuesto,
sweet jesus!
Run, run, to someplace away,
stay away and never come back.

Are these people cruel?
Are humans ignorant?
Must I feel blessed to be born in this damned species?
Must I stay with them forever?

Run, run, corro, let me run
to Hang Son Doong,
to the Islands of the Caribbean,
to the Amazonian forests,
I don't know, just let me go.

Sri Chinmoy, you're wrong,
Anger can destroy peace,
not the other way around.

Ugh, I'm suffocated,
Anger - stop eating me!
He clouds my thought, my senses and reason,
I can't think anymore, I'm exploding.

Lord, what's wrong?
Is it me or the world?
There's so much fury boiling inside me,
but who is it I hate - the world or me?

No, stop telling me this world is kind!
It's broken, spoiled and filled with malice.
Arabs, Jews, Africans suffering,
and I've been told learning past perfect will fix this world!

My mind's a tangle of webs,
and I think about the greater good and troubles,
must I think about the world so much,
for the most intimidating thing that could happen to me,
is going past the deadlines.

Ugh, the futility of everything terrorizes me,
Humans, you have brought unto thyself doom,
the futility of this poem manifests as hatred,
I'm grasping at fraying ends of inspiration, but for whom?

*A terrible poem, with terrible words and a terrible rhyme scheme. But dear reader, do understand that I want to publish the original, unedited version of the poem.